Saturday, September 18, 2010

Vaguely Deceiving



Remember when, so late at night,
I’d lay to wish, away my fright.
I’d close my eyes to when I’ll see,
My many dreams, come true for me.

I wished so hard, to love and live.
To reach my dreams, my all I’ll give.
I wished for someone, for someone here.
To hear my cries, and hold my tears.

But time went on, that was the past.
Now satisfaction, how long will last?
It seemed my wishes were oh too vague,
And now I’m left with nothing made.

My wishes came partly true.
The other half, where at who knew.
But all I know is just regret.
Why wish at all, when nothing’s left?

Luxe - 32 - One or the Other



[Raymond’s Point of View]

My arms were crossed as I leaned against the wall, pressing hard against it due to the messed up feeling inside of me. Not only did I have the upcoming board meeting to worry about, one of my closest friends is in the emergency room, desperately fighting for her life. What else could go wrong?
I glanced up slightly and saw Ron pacing back and forth now, instead of slumping in disbelief on the row of chairs. I’ve never seen him this worried about anything, and he looked way more like a train-wreck than he did when he got bad news about his father. Ron must really care about Nancy and the baby, and for all the right reasons.
Bernice was sitting on a chair, though seeming calm and collective, just by the look in her eyes I could tell she was exploding with emotions. What was she thinking though? Could she have finally given up on Ron and allow him and Nancy to stay together? But even if she did, sadly, we don’t even know Nancy’s conditions right now.

“Nurse, nurse,” Ron called as he grabbed a lady in white while she walked out of the room. “How is my wife?”

“I’m sorry we don’t have her at a stable condition yet. We’re still trying to protect both the mother and the baby. Please excuse me.”

“Whatever you do, save the mother, please.” Ron pleaded as she left in a hurry.

The expression on Ron’s face said it all. He was one step from hell, one very small step. He was back to slumping on the chair, his eyes blank and saddened. I understood him completely. Choosing to save the mother over the baby doesn’t mean he loved his child any less. It was just a much more worthwhile decision. He knew he couldn’t live without Nancy, so choosing her over his unborn child is forcefully acceptable.
Just when I watched the nurse run down the hallway, I realized Tavia was nowhere in sight. I remembered back when she quietly excused herself to get a drink, and she hasn’t returned since. It has been a while, so I wondered if she was still at the water fountain. I jogged down the hall, trying to remain discreet to the other patrons in this white blinding hospital. I ran a bit more and I finally found her by the water fountain. When I came up to her, she was quiet. She was on her knees, and she was quiet. But I could hear her breathing, and worst, I could hear her trying to hold back her tears that kept flowing downwards.

“Tavia,” I sighed as I pulled her into my arms.

She held me tightly, clinging on to me with desperation. “What if Nancy doesn’t make it?” she asked through clenched teeth and teary eyes.

I pulled her closer, stroking her hair hoping to calm her down just a little bit. “She’s strong, she’ll make it. Nancy has always been really strong. It’s going to be okay.” I sighed, knowing just as well as Tavia how terrified we both were right now.

The only thing I could do was close my eyes and pray to dear god for her to be alright.

~*~

[Damian’s Point of View]

“Mr. Lau, at the board meeting that is going to happen in a couple days, I will give you my shares of AVC. Just please don’t play any more tricks at the meeting,” Bernice Liu spoke over the phone.

“Of course, and thank you, thank you very much.”

“I will contact you later, have a nice evening.”

“You too Miss Liu. It was nice working with you,” I replied, smiling. The look on my face could not explain the intense joy I am feeling right now.

I turned off the flashing television screen and pulled off my Bluetooth headset. The reporter’s words still repeated in my mind. “Today an accident involving a pregnant woman and drag racers happened at around five in the afternoon. The victim’s condition is still unstable and there haven’t been anymore confirms of more victims.” My lips curled upwards in a smile as I picked up the glass of wine and took a small sip.
Obviously Michael was also listening. His eyes stared at me with an odd feeling behind it. I wondered what he could be thinking, and I wondered how proud he would be of me when we take back AVC and have it rightfully back in our hands.

“Is it really worth it?” he suddenly asked. “Is a stupid company really worth it?”

“What are you talking about?” I smiled. “AVC is your blood and sweat, its rightful owner is us.”

“But you’ve just harmed someone innocent, just by this you could get jailed.”

“I don’t care, as long as the company is back with our family.”

“Have some sense of morality will you? You just harmed Nancy Wu. She was the only one who kept my daughter company and helped her throughout all these years. I already owed her so much, and now you just had to hire street racers to run her over.”

“It’s all planned,” I argued. “If Nancy Wu is out of the picture, not only will Bernice Liu give me support, Wu Enterprise will also stay out of our business. Anthony Wu is a smart man, and if his daughter is harmed in this game, he will surely withdraw. It will help with all the private projects that foolish Kenneth Ma kept pressuring me with.”

“You could’ve just used some other sly tricks of yours. You didn’t have to resort to harming the innocent.” Michael sighed. “I already owe my daughter so much; I don’t want to take away her closest friend too.”

“When we get back AVC, everything will be all better. You can pay her back with anything in the world,” I tried to convince him.

“Money isn’t the issue, little brother.” It’s been a long time since Michael called me little brother, and when he did it sent some warning signal running through my body. “I’m going out for a drink. And I’m warning you, if you sent any of your hired triad friends to follow me, I won’t keep quiet any longer.”

I watched him leave, the door closing behind him. With honesty, I had to admit I was so tempted to ask someone to follow him, mainly because I cared more about his safety, and in this state of mind, his safety is far more important than anything. But by his request, I had to just sit down, and allow him to freely get a drink. I leaned back, closing my eyes and sighing heavily at the ceiling. I just can’t wait until everything is over, and finally take back what was rightfully ours to begin with.

~*~

[Ron’s Point of View]

My heart was about up to my throat as I sat up to the opening doors. A group of nurses and doctors came out, pushing a metal bed with Nancy laying on it. She was unconscious, and it pained me to see her hooked up to all those wires and tubing. I felt tears in my eyes when the nurse suddenly handed me a small, soft bundle. In it was a baby, a baby boy I checked. And it took me a moment to realize, but he was my baby, my little baby boy with Nancy.

“The baby is born and healthy, his weight is just a little bit under what we expected, but he’s strong and healthy,” the nurse smiled at me with relief.

“What about the mother nurse? Is she alright?” I asked in a hurry, holding my sleeping baby gently in my arms.

She was quiet for a moment. “She’s breathing, but we are still unsure when she will wake up or…if she will wake up at all…”

I silently followed her into Nancy’s room. It was dark in there, but I left it that way, only turning on the little desk lamp beside her bed so that our three faces were visible, hers, mine, and our baby. I held him tightly in my arms, careful not to hurt him but also careful not to drop him. With my free hand I took Nancy’s, and I held onto her tightly. She looked so weak, and the monitor of her heartbeat wasn’t helping make this any better with its faint beeping.

“Nancy, our baby’s here,” I whispered softly beside her ear. “He’s sleeping, and he looks so much like you. I decided to name him Alex, that’s what you wanted, isn’t it?”

I looked down at baby Alex, still sleeping soundly in my arms. His lips were closed, but curled upwards in a tiny, innocent little smile. I couldn’t help but let out a little smile myself, stroking his chubby little cheeks as gently as ever.

“He’s going to be such a good boy,” I continued. “Look, he’s still sleeping now, and I haven’t heard him cry since.”

Alex suddenly squirmed in my arms. He tried turning a bit, but was too weak to do much other than wiggle his little body. Slowly his eyes opened, and for the first time I got to look into my child’s eyes. They reminded me so much of my own, like Nancy had explained, except without all the distance. He was so fragile, but so cute. He let out a soft cry, but after a minute, I finally calmed him down. That was the first time I heard my boy cry, his first sound to my ears. After a moment, he then stared at me with curiosity in his big brown eyes. His lips then suddenly curved upwards again, and he smiled, laughing in a high pitch little baby squeal at the face I just made him. He was my little boy, and looking up at Nancy, I held her hand tightly in mine, allowing her to touch baby Alex’s little cheek.

“He’s our little boy Nancy, and he can’t wait to see the face his mommy will make when she wakes up and stares into his big brown eyes.” I spoke softly with all the hope I had in me. She was going to wake up, and I trust that Nancy will hold on tight.

~*~

[Tavia’s Point of View]

I couldn’t rid the thoughts from my mind. Inside my head, I kept thinking over and over again, tracing the cause of Nancy’s so-called accident. The worst thing is, the more I think about it, the more reasons I find that would link everything down to me. I was the one who asked Kenneth to do whatever he could to get Bernice’s share. I could also be the one that led this upon poor, innocent Nancy. In the end, I could be the one who caused Nancy’s many injuries, and her unstable condition on the hospital bed. I caused Ron so much pain and worries, and I caused baby Alex to wake up into this world without the comfort of his own mother.

“Tavia,” Raymond’s soft voice interrupted my thoughts.

I turned around, facing him. His face was straight but saddened, and he seemed speechless, stuttering to find what to say. I tried pulling a light, simple smile, but I failed so badly I only ended up cringing in disappointment at my own self. What kind of person am I?

“She’ll be alright. We all know Nancy, and she may be stubborn but she won’t make the wrong decision in the end. She’ll hold on all she can, and she’ll wake up soon.”

“But what if she doesn’t? What if no matter how hard she tries she still won’t…go through this?” I asked him, feeling the tears clouding my eyes and thoughts as I stuttered the last few words.

He took my hands. “She will, have faith in her. Ron’s beside her now and I know he won’t let her slip away so easily. She’ll wake up.”

Raymond’s voice was also shaky. I guess we both were close to being in the same position. Except my second worry was what I had ended up doing to my best friend all because of a company, and Raymond’s second worry was the upcoming board meeting, in a couple of days. I would love to comfort him like he was to me. I’d love to take away his worries. But I can’t, at least not right now. If I did then that would only ruin everything, and put all the sacrifices and pain to waste.
I looked up at him and finally pulled an obviously fake smile. He kissed me goodbye as I stepped out of his car and up to my apartment. I knew he wouldn’t follow, he had so much on his mind and still so much work left to do at home. So I headed up to the apartment, alone.
Step by step I came closer to the one place that was filled with endless memories. My apartment alone was decorated with endless nonsense both Nancy and I used to find interest in. As I stepped foot inside the door and stared up at the star scattered ceiling we both decided to make a couple years back, my knees gave out and I slid onto the ground. I couldn’t help myself from crying, praying to whoever was listening to save my sister. Yes, I consider her my sister, because thinking back, no one else would do any of that for me, but Nancy did.
With all the strength I had, I pulled myself over to my couch. I sat in the single arm chair that Nancy used to love lying backwards in. Staring at our picture sitting on the coffee table, I was engulfed in silence. I couldn’t clearly remember why we made such crazy faces in that picture, but we obviously had a great time. If anything happened to Nancy, I don’t know what I’d do. Then I thought about the reason this accident happened.
If my guesses were right, either Damian or Bernice must’ve hired someone to take her out. Why? Bernice’s reason was obvious enough, but Damian’s reason is a little twisted. I knew he needed her out of the picture because of Wu Enterprise’s private patch ups for AVC, and what better way to take someone out that by standing on the sidelines and watching as they end up in a so-called “accident”? I’ve worked with him before, and I could say I know him well enough to say that he would do a thing like this. It’s sick to know we’re related.
This only adds more onto the reason why I can’t let him win. If Damian wins then all my work would’ve gone to waste. All the troubles, all the pain, lies, and worries would be all for nothing, and that is that last thing I will ever let happen. I have to keep standing firmly where I am now, and just hope that things will work out in the very end.

A soft muffled knock on my door woke me up, but I wasn’t that asleep to begin with.

I went over to the door, hesitating to open it as I wondered who it could be. It could be Raymond, coming over with a long face because of all the worries in him while hoping to comfort me. Or it could be Ron, coming over with sweet baby Alex and bearing news that Nancy is alright and she is complaining in the hospital about pointless stuff. I laughed at myself. I wished Ron would come.
When I opened it, the person standing there wasn’t Ron or Raymond. In fact, I never would expect him to be standing here, in front of me. I’d never expect this in a million years, or a million years after that. I was caught off guard as I stared back into his soft, remorseful eyes.

“Dad…why are you here?” I asked in pure surprise.

The look on his face seemed a bit stunned. Of course, he would never expect me to call him dad either, neither did I. I couldn’t explain why I did that. All I knew was that right then and there, he’s standing before me. And all I knew was that right now, I could really use a dad to be with me. I opened the door wider, silently inviting him in. A smile fell on his face, the same smile I would always see when he was with mom and me. They were the very same smile that imprinted the building blocks of my childhood.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Why Make the Distance Longer



\\: This is for a new friend of mine, Nikeacha Trippett. No she didn't die, she's just moving really far away. Nike, I only met you last year and I wished I had more time to become closer friends with you, but I guess this will have to do. Best wishes, love the little Asian. ^_^ ://

To a certain extent, we all have a limit.
There’s a line for everything, even if you don’t see it.
A friendship bond can only go so far.
But then there are exceptions, no matter where you are.

Some friends will come and go,
While some will stay and know
That footsteps left behind,
Create a stronger bind.

For those who had to leave,
The distance won’t deceive.
It’s hard to hold your tears,
When you’re no longer here.

Why move so far away,
When friendship’s so hard this way.
Why make the distance longer,
When it won’t make you stronger.

You know it’s hard enough,
Inevitable change is rough.
So why must make it harder
By making the distance longer?

You know you will be missed
You bring us such a list.
So special with no delay,
But now you part away.

\\: Nike we'll all miss you and everything you are. ://
P.S. I still would duct tape you for you to stay, if only I could.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Lighthouse



I’ve journeyed some place far away.
So far that there’s nowhere to stay.
Though beauty lies within my hold,
The star it blinks, my life untold.

Reminds me of that place I loved,
A lighthouse down, nearby the cove.
The sands that hold my tears down low,
And sunsets take my heart a glow.

I’ve almost forgotten the past,
Didn’t think I’d doubt how much will last.
I missed the breeze that passed me by,
How it told me, “Don’t be so shy”.

And now the lighthouse by the sea,
Sits silently, waiting for me.
My home, the lighthouse held no lie,
My little world, under the sky.

P.S. I know cove and love doesn't rhyme, it's just a somewhat close rhyme. ^_^

Even if I Love You



I’ve been hurt and played for far too long.
When I met your gaze, I knew my heart was wrong.
Unlike those fairy tale endings that never come true,
Again I will be broken, my foolish heart for you.

And even if I chose to follow my heart,
I knew we’ll never be close. We’re so far apart.
And even if I love you,
I know you’ll never love me too.

And even if I’m by your side,
I know you won’t give me, a loving place to hide.
And even if I care about you,
I know just me, I’ll never do.

I can’t tell love where to go,
Only hope it won’t go too low.
I can’t let go of my hidden feelings,
But I can deny them, so I won’t end up crying.

Though even if I love you,
I know you won’t be satisfied. Just me will never do.
And even if you loved me too,
Somehow I know, this dream just can’t be true.

Crash Like the Broken Waves



Windy nights don’t give me chills.
High end stunts don’t give me thrills.
Walked a while, chose to stop.
Chang my path, turn out on top.

Pick up waves, sail the sea.
Search for a path, just right for me.
Carried by the deep blue ocean,
I close my eyes to feel the motion.

Night comes by, the waves still hold.
I lie and wait, till life unfolds.
Never thought, I’d reach the end.
It came too fast, I can’t amend.

My sailboat shakes, as it rides the tide.
I just feel it breaking, my place to hide.
Just like the tide, this soon will break.
Yet one last glace, is all I’ll take.

No matter what, the ship must go.
Caught by the tides, and winds it blow.
I’m with this boat, I’ll never leave.
And soon we’ll reach, a great relieve.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Forgetting You Were Gone



Many days have passed by, but I am still wondering
Where are you these days, are you missing are you watching?
Been waiting here to say, I’d never thought I’d tell,
Realization had been done, and now I know it well.
How I’ve erased the pain, I’ve forced it far away.
No longer will I hurt, over missing you today.

It breaks my heart no more, the pain of missing you.
I seemed to have forgotten, you’re gone I never knew.
Been living life indifferently, I’ve learned to let you go.
Along with all the memories, I’ve locked them far below.
But willingly I’ve favored, the locked to linger through,
And with those lovely scenes, visions of us come new.

I still can see your face, your smiles imprint me.
Forgotten you have left, to me you’re where I see.
With me through every step, your love and warmth still here,
So close that I’ve abandoned, the truth in which I feared,
Forgetting you were gone, you’ve stood here by my side,
Because you still remain, your traces never hide.

Care



It hurts so much, but you don’t care.
Whenever I fell, you were never there.
I don’t know why I love you, I don’t know why it hurts
But I just can’t bear the fact, of leaving you in dirt.
It hurts so much when I realize, that I’ve fallen for you.
Completely I’ve lost myself, all to someone like you.
It hurts so much to see, how much I’ve gone to care,
But every time that I fall, you’re always never there.

Raindrops on My Roof



I remember lying there, in the half empty room that was once so full of endless memories. From those hanging posters on the wall to each loose pen and pencil in the room, they all used to mean something to me. I remember those nights where I’d lay back in the soft comfort of my bed staring up at the empty, open canvas I call my ceiling. I remember each night I’d dream of the day gone through, dreaming of better endings, and a better life. And I also remember those nights when I thought that this was the end of the road, only to come back and realize I’ve still got a long journey in front of me, not even started yet. I remember those nights when I’d lay back, listening to nothing else but the sound of raindrops falling and hitting my roof, making an unconscious rhythm that never seem to fade away even if the rain has stopped. Now I would remember all of those nights, during the time where I finally realized what I am to do with my life…for the moment.
The rhythm of the rain used to be the one rhythm that no matter how hard I try to fight, it would always brings tears into my eyes. They could be tears of loneliness, confusion, or happiness and gratitude. There were way too many rain storms in my life to count, but every time they came, it was like the locked up portions of my heart unwillingly opened itself up, letting everything ever hidden inside to just burst out in forms of those clear little drops worth a million. From each rain storm, I’d learn a little bit more about myself, and I’d learn a little bit more about the world around me.

I learned that…

Whenever you cry, thinking that everything is over and you’ve made the biggest mistake in the world, things will always turn out okay and that they are not as bad as they seem. Sure for someone my age, fifteen living in a foreign country, speaking a foreign art form, everything will seem so bad and so frightening. But things are different, and a sense of fairness still lives within this corrupted world, somewhere. The storm may be here now, the storm may be powerful and seem to destroy anyone and anything in its path, but the storm won’t last forever. A person has a hundred years to live, and in those hundred years, many, many things will happen that are beyond their imagination, no matter how vivid the mind is. In those one hundred years, the storm will start, and the storm will pass. After all, ever since the beginning of time, no world crisis as in war or storms lasts anywhere close to a hundred years.

Whenever you give up on the world, thinking it has left you far behind, leaving you still choking on its trail of dust, you’ve been wrong all this time. The world has never left you; the world was never leaving in the first place. The world stands still, serving as merely a game board for the man who walks the Earth to shape their own lives themselves. Each precious, irreplaceable diamond that fall from your eyes, they’re proof that you’re still living, and they’re proof that you’re still going. Kind of like those times back in the little sandboxes, you’d trip and fall over your own clumsy two feet, but then get back up again like nothing happened. There’s still a scar somewhere on your knee, your elbow, somewhere on you showing to your mother or father that you had fallen once, but then look at you, you’re running and playing again. Those times are just like that hardships you face now. Each time you’re stopped dead in your track with some obstacle, it’s just like you have fallen in the sandbox. No matter how hard it may seem and how much you think you’ll never get back up, no matter what you’ll always somehow end up standing back up on your own two feet, even if you haven’t even noticed it.

Big Round Eyes


~ Little brothers are annoying, and so are mine. But I'll never ever be able to be who I am without the two little kids always beside me.
~ I love you Jacky, and Jimmy.

You little child, so much to learn.
You’re childish, so much you yearn.
You little baby, you’re easily hurt.
You’re childish, don’t fall in dirt.

At times in life, I’d love to say,
Wish you were gone, just go away.
At times in life, I’d love to say,
You’re so annoying, give me my way.

But when the thought, consumes my mind,
A sudden stop, now left behind.
I looked into your big round eyes,
And there I saw my long lost skies.
No longer do I, wish you away.
But wish you’re here, and you would stay.
I looked into your big round eyes,
And there I saw, your love no lie.
So now I wish, that you wouldn’t stray.
You are my brothers, I wish you’d stay.

Silence is Pain, Silence is Love


~ This is for the one and only man who will never leave me.
~ I love you dad.

When storm clouds call and crash our way,
You were silent, but strong you stayed.
When wars with words break out in cries,
You were silent, but told no lies.

Though you are silent, I feel your pain.
You kept your mask, even in rain.
But in your eyes, I see it all.
Your sufferings hidden, behind your wall.

Though you are silent, I feel your love.
You hid your smile, when we’re above.
But in your eyes, I see it all.
Screaming with joy, I hear your call.

You are important, you stopped the rain.
You’ve taught me well, your silence is pain.
You are my dad, you rise above.
You’ve shown to me, your silence if love.

Standing in the Rain



~ Though we don't always get along, this is for the person who loved me before I was even born.
~ I love you mom.

Life is vein, I hear your pain.
In the rain, I’ve lost my sane.
My back is wet from all those tears
That fell from heaven, and showed my fears.
And when I thought, that I’m alone,
But there you stood, and said you’ve known.
You knew my pain, been down the road.
My shattered heart, again you sewed.
Yet rain still fell, yet like you said
A shield is up, above my head.
It’s held by you, and me you led
Through every day, then back to bed.

Now years have passed, I’m all grown up.
I think it’s time, for you to stop.
Make light your burden, for I am strong,
Enough to say, I’ll make it long.
And now it’s time, to light your pain.
I’ll be your cover, inside the rain.

Fear and Confidence



I’m not a demon but just a simple girl
I would give up anything to be top of the world
I may be ignorant but I’m far from heartless
I would pain the most though hiding in darkness

Just a simple human and like others I have fears
I’d be afraid to let go that thought puts me in tears
But now I’m up again and starting to let go
I picked up the broken pieces and got above the low

Now recovered from a love I’m not meant for
I’ve healed from the breakdown and destiny restored
I’ve picked myself up and I got off the ground
Now it’s time to face the fears time to show I’m found

Yet again my foolish heart has gone astray
And here is the guy how I wish he could stay
He hasn’t been here long but it’s enough to say
My heart is more protecting but still leaning in his way

How I wish I’d find the courage to reveal
My true feelings that I’ve kept behind a seal
But yet there is fear it’s paying me a visit
And the words can’t leave me no matter how I make it

I’m sure I need more confidence but like everything it isn’t free
So how should I tell this guy I wish we both could be
In fear of pain and that fear is rejection
I can’t let him know my true feelings for his action

Yet I see there’s no escape no ways control emotions
I can’t deny my feelings and forget this strong attraction
But I fear I can’t keep up when he is far from reach
Now I’m losing by a mile and love is what they never teach

Hypocrisy



Just nights ago, I lay there with time.
When my mind unveils
Those my thoughts sublime.
Dreamt a dream so real,
Began to think was true.
I made a wish upon the night,
And ask it what can do.
If it can take away my sight
Of this train wreck broken world,
And take me far away
To a brighter life unfurled.
But once I’m there to stay
In a world of which so new,
Regret consumed me whole.
Now wish back to where I knew,
Hypocrisy in me unfolds.
Who am I, to toy with fate?
Keep wishing for change,
Now I face what I hate.

Don't Fall Asleep


Don’t fall asleep, in lonesome nights.
Don’t fall asleep, when lacking lights.
The dark may rise, the lights evade,
Descend the skies, our sins are weighed.
Enveloped wings, in shadow’s hold,
The angels sing, the truths untold.
Nightmarish past, an empty way,
Will haunt us last, before our stay.
Our eyes shut tight, we feel so gloom.
Harbingers call, a future doom.

Don’t fall asleep, when shadows glide.
Don’t fall asleep, where we can’t hide.
The devil haunts, forgotten stars.
The dreams now taunt, imprinted scars.
Invade our minds, a gripping snare,
And let us meet, the devil’s glare.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Wish Upon a Star


Night skies filled with hope,
Come hang me by a rope.
I am a simple lover,
And by far I am no fighter.

I make simple wishes in my heart,
And I’ll never understand your art.
I don’t know why night must be dark,
But in me you have left your mark.

I make wishes upon your skies.
Silently I tell no lies.
I make a wish upon your star,
Its hope has brought me far.

And I will go just far so far,
I’ll keep wishing, upon a star.

I Love You


I miss your loving embrace,
And the way you stroke my face.
I miss your unannounced hugs,
The way you gave my heart a tug.

I miss your never ending care
And how you hold my star.
I miss it when you’re sober,
How I promises it’ll be over.

I miss how you hold me tight,
And your comfort through the night.
I miss our speechless car rides,
But you didn’t let my sorrows hide.

I miss how you made me face my fears,
And you were there with every tear.
I miss you and your endless love,
Oh how it made me rise above.

I miss you and the things you do.
I miss how you’d tell me “I love you”.
And though I lie that I don’t care about you,
The truth is, for so long, I love you too.

Thank You


To those proud amongst the many
To those nights that turn so rainy,
I am grateful of your presence
I’m a slave to you existence.

To those quiet summer nights,
To those times the bid takes flight,
And those hopeful falling stars
And these feet that travelled far,

I am thankful for your love
And those gifts that came above.
From those guiding fireflies
To those icy teary eyes,

I am thankful.
And what more can I do,
Beside thanking you?

Somebody to Love



A heart holds only one,
But most can fit the sun.
While mine is sadly empty,
And its walls echo lonely.

I have this love,
Ready to give,
But I just don’t know,
To whom it will show.

So please be somebody,
Out there and be ready,
To take in my love,
And join me above.

Just please let there be,
Oh somebody for me,
Somebody to love,
And take me above.

:: Favorite Quotations ::

"I believe that some day, he will walk into my life and give me all the right reasons to live, laugh, and love. " - A Dreamer



"When you start to miss me, remember, I didn't walk away, you let me go." - A girl



"Live with no excuses and love with no regrets." - Unknown



"Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about." - Unknown



"Someday someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else." - Unknown



"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." - One wise person.