Ah, it's been a lazy summer so far. But I'm not complaining, I've been needing a break ever since February, ugh. How's your summer? I know mine have been quite mundane but relaxing. ^_^
So, in the past week or two, I've had so many dreams (very real, very vivid dreams) that I'm starting to think there's a meaning for them. So there are many theories on how people have dreams. Some people say when you think about someone a lot, you tend to dream about them. Some people say when you really want something to happen, you dream about it. Then some people say dreams can be prophets and they tell you what your future may hold. Well, even after all my (somewhat lacking) research on dreams, I STILL don't know why I'm having these dreams. Let me contradict the theories I've listed above ^^^.
Some people say when you think about someone a lot, you dream about them. >> Well I don't think about these people all that often. Maybe once or twice when I'm reminded of them. So why do I dream about them? o.0
Some people say when you really want something to happen, you dream about it. >> I don't really want anything to happen. I'm bored but I'm content with my life as it is. I'm glad it's not getting any worse. So why do I dream about stuff happening? o.0
Some people say dreams can be prophets and tell you what your future may hold. >> Psh, yeah right. I remember many dreams and let me tell you none of them have ever came true or is anything close to coming true. So why do I dream? o.0
And now for my dreams. Hmm, there are certain people in my dreams I really don't want to reveal the names of, so I'll just put the letter of their first name and a brief bio. Then onto the dreams!
C = First ever crush...worst year and a half of my life. Glad it's all over with now! Ok guy.
T = Most latest crush, lasting for about a year? Got over him, now confused between friend or something else. Quite nice guy, not my type though I'm sure.
Hm, so in one dream, T and I were dating. Well we dated before in real life, but for one week and that got absolutely nowhere. But in my dream, well somehow he was different. He was the funnest guy to be with! I swear I might have been smiling while I was sleeping, or grinning like a fool (I'm insane I know). We talked, like had actual good conversations. We kissed, but it wasn't an all physical relationship (ALL I EVER ASK FOR!!! lol). We hung out, and unlike in real life where it would be quite boring, in my dream it was really fun! We were walking, just walking, and joking around, and holding hands. It was some time in the fall, I know because I was wearing jeans and a tee, and it had an autumn like feeling all around. We were first hiding out in my school (apparently we were keeping our relationship a secret?) and we were just having fun! Man, if dreams could come true that'd be nice. Unlike real life how whenever I hang out with T, it'd be so awkward and to be honest kind of boring. ugh =.=
Now for the dream involving C. To be honest, I don't even talk to C anymore so when I woke up realizing I had a dream and he was in it, I was so confused. In the dream, we weren't dating, we weren't kissing, we were just hanging out and again...having fun! We were walking down what looked like a dirt path in this one park I remembered. We were talking and laughing like idiots. Then we played tennis (my best memory with him was when we played tennis together in the seventh grade at an end of the year field trip. Best time with him, very sad I know). After playing tennis we just listened to music. Hmm, quite relaxing.
So now I haven't been dreaming about C that much, but lately I've gotten so many dreams with T!!! It's irritating because they would be so vivid, I'd wake up sometimes wondering if it actually happened, because it'd feel so real, and the time line would match up with the seasons, weather and everything. It's so frustrating when I realize it's just a dream. Before, when I dreamed things I would think it's because I either think about him a lot, want something like that to happen, or it will happen in the future. But after many months, years, I've learned that dreams have nothing to do with real life. But yet...it still bothers me because I'd dream about me, being with the same person, feeling so right, just having fun being together, and then realize it's just a dream. Then in real life I wonder if I like him as a friend, or I'm back to crushing on him again. I know I don't love him though, when I love someone there's a special feeling I get when I look at him, and that feeling's long gone with T. Ugh, I'm so frustrated by these dreams. I don't love T...anymore...but why do my dreams always involve him? It's always him. Why not anyone else? I know plenty of guys who are rather good, but I never dream about them. Just T!!! Oh well, it's summer, no more questions and no more drama. :P Stupid dreams, got be going psycho again.
