Thursday, January 27, 2011

What I've Been Up To...

This was before the snow...
Standing in front of my high school, I took a picture of the sunrise with my iPod. Surprisingly it turned out a lot better than I had hoped, even though I'm not much of a photographer.
Finally it was snowing. My family and I were on a Family Bonding Night and we just walked out of a restaurant. Jimmy, my youngest brother was trying to catch the snow. Being in America for so long, snow is common to me and the land is kind of boring where I live, but there is still something about it that makes me smile.


Supposedly this was after a winter snow storm. It's not really much of a storm if you ask me. I took this photo from the giant window in my living room. The good thing that came out of this "storm" was that I had no school the next day and a 2-hour delay the day after so I was happy.

My baby cousin Madelyn! Born on January 1, 2011. She is a New Year's baby!!! How lucky haha. She's my favorite cousin and my uncle and aunt allowed me to hold her, bottle feed her and let her burp. She was the first baby I ever got to feed. I didn't even feed my little brothers because I was too young when they were this little.

Of course I've been working on my fan fiction too. At first I ran into some troubles with the plot because I wanted to add more action to my story. I actually had a small writer's block. But then after just laying down on my bed, I thought of good ideas for it. Somehow my bed is just so helpful that way. So I've decided not to make this a story focusing on action but more on love...

Aside from "From Dawn Till Dusk", I'm also working on "Midnight Sun"!!! I came up with the name way before Stephenie Meyer so ha! I actually came up with this in 7th grade, about four years ago. That was way before Twilight became popular so ha! I have proof too! I let a friend of mine read a draft of it and I was smart enough to put the date on it haha.
Well "Midnight Sun" is coming alone nicely. I won't reveal the plot until I decide to post it though. I think I'm going to wait until I'm a little deeper in with "From Dawn Till Dusk".


No More Tears



Many times I’ve cried in pain.
Tears spill out again, again.
Once I thought it’d never end.
Trapped alone, I can’t amend.

Till this night come storming by,
I’ve been hurt but I didn’t cry.
All the tears are locked away.
Deep within my heart they’ll stay.

Even when he breaks my heart,
I won’t cry. It’s not so hard.
Listen to the flowing wind,
I am fine. I have not sinned.

Through the years I’m finally done.
No more tears. In me they’re gone.
Been through heartbreak, been through pain.
Told myself, don’t cry again.

Why?



When I know that love is pain,
Why did I fall through again?
Loving you was not my choice.
Even with my boundless voice,
I cannot make you return
A love for me, a love that burns.

Many times I’m all alone,
Told myself I’m on my own.
Loneliness is now a friend,
Emptiness, a space I’ll bend.
Yet my heart beats like a fool,
Using me just like a tool.

Why must I love one like you?
One of which I never knew?
You wouldn’t give this girl a chance.
Why must I stay in a trance?
One way love is never fun,
Yet my heart is still not done.

Why must I go love a guy?
Unknowingly, he makes me cry.
Many tries, I’ve let you go.
But you’ll come back. That fact I know.
Why must I go love in pain?
Time and time, and time again.

I'm Crying



When you look at me, what can you see?
Can you see that tear? That tear hidden in me.
Would you believe me if I told you,
There’s something about me you never knew?
That all along I have been crying.
I say it doesn’t hurt but I’m lying.
The tears dry up but my heart still bleeds.
As time goes by the sorrow seeds.

Look at me. I seem so happy now don’t I?
No one could believe that I can cry.
The silly girl with endless dreams and fantasy
Can shed a tear. So let it be.
You wouldn’t believe it but I’m crying.
I smile now but I am lying.
The silence is just too much. I cannot stand.
Yet you stand there, watching. Give me no hand?

I feel the pain. I feel the sadness drown my mind.
Why do you walk away? Why leave me behind?
The tears I cry are for the love, the pain and sorrows.
I fake my strength. While inside I’m a tempest of woe.
I can’t believe it but I’m crying.
I try to think that I am lying.
That pain doesn’t hurt and this heart doesn’t ache.
Yet the tears slipping out bring a sign that I’ll break.

I can’t believe it but I’m crying.
Life doesn’t hurt and I’m lying.
At times I find myself sighing.
I can’t believe it. I’m crying.

Loving You



Loving you was not a choice.
Loving you was no decision.
Fate brings me what I don’t want,
Destiny, what I can’t handle.
You’re the one to break my heart.
Yet this love I have is art.

I Love Him



He picked up the pieces to my broken heart.
He waited for me when I’m torn apart.
His arms are comforting; he held me close.
His gaze is sensitive. My heartbeat rose.

The one who held me together, all these years,
The boy who sat there to hold my tears,
He never left or even turned.
He stayed with me, how much it burned.

It took so long for me to know,
He’s love me. He loves me so.
Now I can see how much is true,
I can’t deny I love him too.

Asian Adventures ep. - 01

Asian Adventures ep. 01 - Meagan and Her Muffin

[NO RACIST JOKES ARE TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY]
The adventures of an Asian in America...quite odd and random. ^_^

Sunday, January 23, 2011

From Dawn Till Dusk - 04 - Doing Things Her Way



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October 25, 2009……8:15 a.m.
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She sat back into the car seeming like she was in a hurry. As she pulled the door to a close, her eyes were on another person, a girl all the way across the street. Nancy fixed her silver trench coat as she settled herself in the seat. She handed the guy next to him a hot drink, one of the two she held in her hands. She placed her other cup down in the holder as she leaned closer to the windshield, taking a closer view of the girl.

“Bosco, this is boring,” Nancy commented as she slouched in her position.

“Just keep watch,” the man sighed as he carefully sipped the hot coffee. “Ron put you and me on Macy Chan. We just have to keep watching her for today and we’re done.”

“But all she’s doing is shopping, eating and drinking. She’s not even talking to anyone. This is so boring,” Nancy continued to complain.

After a while, Nancy sat back in her seat and folded her arms. Her eyes were still on the younger looking girl as Bosco continued to drive slowly, remaining discreet. They’ve been following her for hours, and to Nancy the most amusing thing that had happened during those hours was when Bosco spilled his last cup of coffee on himself. She could still see the brown stain on his shirt up until now.

“How do you do it?” Bosco asked.

Nancy turned to him, wondering if he was asking her or himself. “Me?” she mumbled.

He nodded. “How do you always know where to look? It’s been bothering me by how easy you can find important leads and information.”

She shrugged casually. “It’s just luck I guess. Or maybe my aggressive nature pulls me into it.”

Bosco laughed. “You’re the first girl I ever met who would admit that you’re aggressive.”

“Well I am. It’s not like I can hide it. You know well enough,” Nancy smiled. “You’ve seen me during chases and other big cracks.”

“Yeah,” Bosco sighed. “You know I always thought that maybe you had planted yourself a mole somewhere in the 14K. You always seem to somehow intercept information ahead of time.”

From Bosco’s words, Nancy became nervous. Even though Bosco may act like a goof and be clumsy at times, he had a very high deductive skill. Why else would Ron choose him for many important tasks? She wasn’t going to let Bosco see what she was hiding. Nancy put her acting face on as she tried to search for a believable lie to fool Bosco. If he ever found out that she really does have a mole working for her, he would no doubt tell Ron. Then, even Nancy wouldn’t know how Ron would react.

She laughed a calm and humored laugh. “Yeah right,” she replied smoothly. “If I had a mole in the 14K, things would be so much easier.”

“I guess so,” Bosco nodded. “Wouldn’t it be really hard to keep a mole loyal though? I mean after all they’re just triads.”

Nancy was about to reply to his question but then she stopped herself. She knew what she was going to say, and it would easily stir more suspicion upon her. She then corrected herself mentally and spoke, “Maybe, how should I know. Maybe all the triads are just bad and greedy people like Ron’s depiction of them. That would be hard to keep a mole then.”

Bosco only nodded and smiled as he turned back to the ever so boring Macy Chan.

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October 25, 2009……9:15 a.m.
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They were both practically dying of boredom. Nancy was gazing up at the morning sky, day dreaming of what she didn’t even know. Bosco’s eyes were glued to the screen of his phone, perhaps playing a small video game he had on there. They weren’t watching Macy anymore. Instead they were both just waiting for the clock to hit ten so that they can report to Ron and tell him that their suspicion on Macy was useless.
Her eyes flickered to the girl. Nancy suddenly noticed a worried look on Macy as she passed by a long alley. She didn’t turn into the alley. Instead she only lingered there for a moment. Macy then got into her car and sat down. Her mind seemed busy and drowned in thoughts about something. Nancy didn’t tell Bosco about it. She waited and thought about the alley. She then remembered that the alley was where they first found the corpse of Alice Chan. Since Macy and Alice were sisters, she must be saddened by the thought of her sister’s death. But Nancy didn’t see sadness on Macy’s face. It wasn’t sadness, it was worry. She must be worried about something. Could she be worried about the investigation going on of Alice Chan’s death? Why would she be worried about the investigation unless she would be negatively affected by it somehow? Nancy wasn’t waiting. She got out of the car and was preparing to follow Macy by foot and alone. Then she would feel more comfortable and maybe she would find out more information.

“Where are you going?” Bosco asked, looking over at her.

“I realized I have a meeting with a nosy lawyer,” Nancy immediately excused. “Tell Ron, he should know. I have to go quick, see you later Bosco.”

Bosco waved her goodbye as he turned back to his game.

She knew that after her excuse, she can’t just run across the street and openly follow Macy. That would just make Bosco question her even more. Thinking ahead, Nancy made a cut down the road and just as she was out of Bosco’s sight, she crossed into an alley. From there she could see if Macy Chan was moving, and if she was she would be able to follow her quickly. Nancy pulled out her phone and dialed a phone number, holding the phone up to her ear and waiting for the other party to pick up.

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October 25, 2009……11:35 a.m.
===

Ron drove slowly, half listening to the many conversations that Kate was trying to start with him. His eyes were busy on the streets, looking at the street signs but most importantly, following their suspect. Yoyo was just doing her usual thing, bouncing from club to club as she seemed to be talking to the people in there. Whether it was something important or something casual, they couldn’t get close enough to find out.

“…so Ron, how did you and Nancy meet?” Kate suddenly asked.

To Ron, that question was so sudden. But he remembered that she had been speaking for a while now and the conversation probably led itself into that topic. He leaned back in his seat as he shot a discreet glance at the sexy and revealing girl. “We met at a night club,” Ron laughed.

Kate smiled. Her smile didn’t bring out her feminine beauty as much as he had hoped to see, but at least it was a smile. “I thought you guys met at work. That was the excuse you always use.”

Ron chuckled slightly. He was amazed that Kate paid that much attention to his personal life with Nancy. He then shook his head and laughed. “It technically was work, but it was also at a night club,” he paused and looked over at her confused face. As he drove on, Ron continued to reminisce the first time he met Nancy and told Kate the story.

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FLASHBACK – In Ron’s Point of View
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My eardrums were about to go numb as the loud music of the club kept pounding through. The music was so loud I heard a loud beep in the back of my head and I can’t even hear my own voice. As I turned to look over at my partner, Bosco, we both wondered how so many people can consider this fun. Maybe we are just different from the people in here, or maybe today just wasn’t a good day for us. Bosco signaled me as he went down one of the halls, casually acting as if he was a new druggie, trying to find some to take in.
On the other hand, I was still sitting in one of the corner booths, chugging down a bottle of beer along with another female officer, disguised as a sexy party animal. The shirt I wore was a black vest. It fit me perfectly, and it felt alright on me. The only problem was that it didn’t fit my usual style and I was still uncomfortable in it. Perhaps I’m just not cut out for this party-thing. The female officer shot me a glance as she got up and left, swaying her butt back and forth, trying to blend in. From the corner of my eye, I saw our target. Eric Li, the man in the trimmed goatee and moustache sat only a few feet away from me.
He seemed to be having a good time as he fiddled with the lock on his briefcase. I sat and watched, waiting for the right time to approach him and not start a riot in this already booming mess. Just when I was about to get up as all the people at his table left, a young, beautiful woman approached him. I sat back down and watched as she sat seductively sprawled out on his lap. Her shoulder length hair brought a wild look to her. She didn’t wear much make up but she still had that “bad girl” look naturally set in. She smiled at him and they seemed to be talking about something. Her shorts were rising up as more of her thigh was revealed. The top she wore didn’t cover much. It only covered her breast, revealing a lot of skin on her chest and her entire stomach. I saw a tattoo on her waist, a tattoo of a phoenix. She was going to be some trouble if I’m going to handcuff Eric, I just knew it.
They suddenly got up. The girl still clung onto my target, her long and slender arms wrapped gently around his neck as he grabbed his briefcase. They walked down the hallway where Bosco had gone down earlier, both wearing wide smiles on their faces. I followed discreetly behind, hoping to find a good time to catch him. Suddenly, almost out of nowhere Bosco stormed out and grabbed Eric back. I could see the surprise on his face as he dropped his briefcase. The girl beside him had an alert look on. She glanced at Bosco quickly, perhaps thinking that he’s another bouncer by the way he was dressed. She then bent down and quickly grabbed the briefcase. I thought she was just going to pick it up but instead she ran for it. With Bosco holding Eric down, I ran after the girl.
She was fast beyond belief. As I chased her, in order to keep her within my view I was pushing myself over the limit. We ran out onto the street and she made a sharp turn into a long alley. She was no doubt very clever too because that alley had many other passages that only the people who lived there would know of. I kept on running, not letting that briefcase slip away. Her long and slender legs stretched far as she glanced back and saw me following her. She made an annoyed face as she tried to lose me. We were running for about ten minutes. By then my lungs were burning, gasping for air. I saw her after I turned the corner and this time, she stopped. It was a dead end and there was no way she could scale a building.

She turned around with an irritated expression on. “Why do you have to run so far for a stinking briefcase?” she asked, short of breath. Her voice was playful but mature and strong as well. She had a pretty face, one I would definitely fall for if not for the fact that she was a night girl.

“Miss,” I spoke, not knowing how to address her. “Just please give me the case.”

She shook her head as she bent down to catch her breath. “If I ran this far to get away from you, I’m not giving it to you so easily.”

I didn’t want to use force, but she seemed too stubborn to just hand it over. As I approached her, she suddenly got behind me. She grabbed my arm and bent it backwards. With my strength I pulled her back in front of me and twisted her arm. I had her locked in a position I knew she couldn’t get away, but she surprised me. Her leg suddenly stretched back behind me and as she stood up, moving to my hands so that she doesn’t break her arm, her leg swept me off my feet. I caught myself quickly, nearly falling face first to the ground. She suddenly grabbed my collar. I grabbed her arm and tried to put her back into a locked position but she used the briefcase to knock me away. I was only about two feet away from her when out of nowhere, her foot came up and with her high heels she kicked me on the side. I fell to the ground but quickly pushed myself back up even though my head was spinning. She was something else.

“Hey! What are you two doing?!” I heard a familiar voice run up to us.

Sharon Chan stood in front of us, the person who was supervising this whole operation. She had a concerned face on but once she saw what that girl had done to my face, she only laughed. “Oh my god Ron,” she laughed. “I’m so sorry.”

“Why are you apologizing to him?” the girl asked as she placed her hands on her hip and tossed the briefcase to Sharon.

“You two know each other?” I asked her, my face still numb.

“Nancy you beat up the wrong person!” Sharon laughed. “Ron is the officer in charge of Team A, the one who is also in on this investigation.”

“Oh my god I’m so sorry,” the girl panicked. She turned my face to her, scanning the giant bruise she had left on my face. Her name was Nancy I believe. She made an apologetic face as she kept apologizing. “I’m so sorry. I didn’t know you were an officer. I thought you were one of the triads after this case.”

I shook my head. “It’s fine,” I lied about the pain on my face. Somehow, her innocent smile made me unable to yell at her. Just the way she held my face made me feel something click inside of me. Her palms were so warm as she tried to think of ways to get rid of the pain. “Ron Ng,” I spoke, even introducing myself with a smile.

“Nancy Wu,” she replied, still feeling guilty about the deadly kick she gave to me.

“I think I’m going to let you two work things out,” Sharon spoke as she checked the case for damages. “After all Nancy, you did kick him pretty hard. You two will be working together soon. I don’t think this is a good impression.” Sharon was smiling and shaking her head as she left, perhaps trying hard to hide her laughter at us.

“Um, do you need to go to the hospital? I can take you.” she asked me with a guilty face.

I laughed and shook my head. “No, some ice would do fine. You were pretty convincing in there. I thought you were one of his girls myself.”

She smiled. This time her smile was so lovely. It wasn’t a fake seductive smile or a guilty smile, it was a natural smile. She looked so beautiful. “Then, let me get you some ice,” she offered.

As we began to walk out of the alley, Nancy suddenly tripped. I caught her in time before she hit the ground and we froze for a long second during that moment. When I pulled her back up, she was still smiling but then she winced from pain.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.

“I think I twisted my ankle or something,” she replied, trying to move her foot.

I smiled at the silly idea. “You twisted your ankle by kicking my face,” I laughed.

“Hey, now we’re even,” she laughed, rubbing her foot.

I bent down beside her and turned my back to her. “Get on I’ll give you a lift,” I offered.

“No, then I’d owe you again. I don’t want to keep owing things to you if I’m going to work with you soon. What if you abuse me?” she joked.

“I won’t,” I replied, laughing at her. “Now get on.”

Her long and slender arms wrapped around my neck. As I picked her up, I felt that she wasn’t heavy at all. We walked down the street silently. I didn’t know what she was thinking in her mind, but to me she felt really warm. I never believed in love at first sight, but at that moment right there I knew that I could carry her for the rest of my life if I had to. She was so thin and fragile to me, I was afraid if I held her any tighter she would get hurt. But then I remembered the bruise that was still on my face. The pain had gone away, but it was still there. She was definitely something else.

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END OF FLASHBACK
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“Love at first sight,” Kate thought as she sat back. Ron couldn’t exactly see her face or her reaction to his story, but she seemed deep in thought about something. Then she suddenly laughed. “For you two, it sounds more like love at first fight.”

He laughed as well because it was true. It was hard to believe, but Ron knew that he fell in love with Nancy by that kick she left on his face. Till this day his jaw would feel numb sometimes, but once again, there was no more pain, just a rather funny memory. “Agreed,” he replied.

They continued to keep watch of Yoyo for a longer while. It was almost time for them to leave and Ron couldn’t wait for the minutes to pass by. As he was about to turn the car around, he suddenly saw a familiar face pass by Yoyo on the streets. Ron sat up to take a closer look as he peered into the crowd. He didn’t believe his eyes at first but there was Nancy. He wondered that if she and Bosco had switched to following Yoyo, Nancy would’ve turned to track Yoyo from behind. Instead she continued on. He then saw that she was following Macy, but at a ridiculously close distance. She could easily get uncovered if Macy turned around. Ron got out of his car as Kate followed him. She no doubt saw Nancy too as she didn’t question why he left the car. The quickly crossed the street. Ron saw that Nancy was walking into a restaurant, still following at a dangerously close distance to Macy. When he looked up at the name of the restaurant, he suddenly remembered that this was a triad filled place. If Nancy was going in there, her aggressive side must’ve kicked in again because they all know that only triads go here and by the looks of things, the restaurant is pretty full.

“Shit,” Ron breathed, keeping his reaction to himself. “Nancy stop trying to get yourself killed,” he mumbled to himself.

“Are we really going in there?” Kate asked. Even she knew the possible danger of going into a triad filled restaurant.

Ron nodded, ignoring the dangers anyways as he followed Nancy inside. He put on a navy blue hat that hid half his face and attached a Bluetooth headset to his ear in hopes of hiding as much as he could. Kate did the same, pulling her hair up into a bun and putting on reading glasses. Nancy on the other hand, went in as she was.
Once in, they discreetly got themselves a table. Ron saw two tables away from the scene. He could see Nancy as she sat down, her eyes seeming to be throwing quick glances at the other man who sat with Macy. Macy sat down with a man, one Ron recognized. He was Ruco Chan, one of Raymond’s men and had a pretty wide track record even though Ron didn’t consider him much of a threat. Nancy opened a menu as the waitress came up to her.

“Hello Nancy!” the waitress greeted happily.

Ron wondered how this triad waitress could know his fiancée so well.

“Hey Ella,” Nancy greeted with a smile as she looked up at the pretty woman.

Ron watched, wondering how often Nancy comes here without telling him.

“Let me guess,” the waitress, Ella began. “Vanilla caramel coffee with extra caramel and sugar?”

Nancy nodded. “How’d you remember?” she laughed.

“Of course I’d remember the skinny girl with an elastic stomach,” the waitress laughed. “So what are you doing here? You don’t usually come this early in the day.”

“Got hungry,” Nancy shrugged.

The waitress soon left as Nancy sat there casually. If Ron didn’t know, he would’ve mistook her for another triad here to buy lunch. He hated to admit it but Nancy blended in perfectly, better than he and Kate could ever pull off. Some of the members even came over and greeted her. Ron was left in awe. Nancy was talking and laughing with the three men that came over and sat down with her. He recognized them all. They’ve been in and out of the station so many times it was hard to forget.

“Seems like she’s got some good connections here,” Kate whispered.

“You don’t have to whisper, the people here don’t usually listen in on conversations,” Ron reminded her. “Whispering actually stirs more attention.”

“Where did you learn that from?”

Ron pointed to Nancy who sat a couple tables from them. He didn’t look one bit happy. Instead he looked angry and disappointed. He sat there perhaps in a fury as he watched Nancy associate with people that she should be handcuffing and putting in jail one by one. His hand clenched into a tight fist as he continued to watch her talk and laugh with the triads. At first he worried about her safety, but seeing how scarily safe she was here, he grew angry at how easily she could mix herself with these people. Soon he couldn’t watch any longer.

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She knew he was following her. She could see him and Kate sitting at the table across from her, watching her right now. Getting him angry wasn’t what she had planned, but she’d rather deal with that than endanger Ron and her and let the perfect lead on their case slip away. She continued to talk and laugh with the three men who had came over, first asking about her familiarity and then about her as a new recruit. Nancy had gotten most of the usual goers here to believe that she works for Raymond. That should make getting leads from Ruco easier. All she had to do from then on was to stay partly invisible as an investigator.
After a couple minutes, the person she was waiting for finally decided to show up. Tavia walked in through the doors, smiling casually with her eyes on Nancy. She shot Ruco a glance as he continued his conversation with Macy. Suddenly, Tavia ran into the back of Macy’s chair. Her bag dropped and Tavia bent down to pick it up for her, smiling apologetically.

“I’m so sorry. I should’ve watched where I was going,” Tavia apologized.

Macy seemed nicer than any triad girls they’ve ever met. She smiled softly and shook her head. “It’s alright. Miss Yeung what are you doing here? I don’t see you here often,” Macy asked, recognizing Tavia as Raymond’s replacement lawyer.

“I’m here to meet a friend,” Tavia replied and then excused herself.

When Ruco got back Macy’s attention, Tavia slipped into the seat across from Nancy. She started pouring the tea for them as she smiled at Nancy with an accomplished face. “Your plans are always so interesting,” Tavia commented.

Nancy sat back and smiled. “I don’t know,” she spoke. “You seemed kind of obvious to me.”

“That’s because you’re a cop and you already know what I’m doing,” Tavia replied.

Nancy then pulled out her cell phone and started pressing a couple buttons on it. After a while, she put it away with a wide smile on her face. “There,” she said. “I got the bug set up. Planting a listening device on Macy was easier than I thought.”

“How can you be smiling right now? Your fiancé is sitting over there, looking like he could rip someone’s head off right this second.”

Nancy rubbed her head as if she’s gotten a bad headache. “I know,” she sighed. “But I’d rather Ron be mad at me than risk losing such a good lead on this case. Besides, since he was already following me and we’re in this part of town, I can’t risk being seen with him or else we’re all screwed,” Nancy pointed out.

Tavia nodded at the true statement. “Hey, I saw your little sister a couple streets back. Does she know that you do all this?”

Nancy nodded. “Yeah, she knows who Ruco is, but she doesn’t know that I’m actually considered a part of their gang here,” Nancy looked up and laughed. “She’d be pretty surprised.”

“Why do you think Macy was the murderer anyways? I thought your whole team was betting on Yoyo as being the murderer,” Tavia spoke, sipping her tea slowly.

“It’s just a hunch, and I trust my hunches,” Nancy replied. “Besides, when I trailed her I noticed that whenever she passed by an alley, she would always have a nervous look on. If you found out your sister died in an alley because of people you know, when you pass by one you would most likely feel sad. She didn’t look sad to me.”

“I don’t have a sister,” Tavia smiled.

“You know what I mean,” Nancy teased, tapping Tavia on the shoulder.

“Right,” Tavia nodded. “I don’t have a sister, but I have a sister-like best friend who always seem to get me into tight situations with her and most of the time I’m stupid enough to go along with it,” Tavia spoke, making a face at Nancy.

“This is not a tight situation,” Nancy protested, keeping her voice low.

“If this isn’t a tight situation then I don’t know what is,” Tavia replied, laughing. “Apparently to you being surrounded by triads and at a risk of exposure means nothing. That’s why I saw you’re insane,” Tavia shook her head.

Nancy smiled and shook her head in defeat. “I have to go. You stay here and have fun waiting for your playboy client.”

Tavia nodded and continued on with her tea.

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October 25, 2009……4:05 p.m.
===

Nancy had been roaming the streets for hours now. She didn’t return to work or went home in fear of getting into another fight with Ron. She couldn’t deny it. She hated it when they fight, but yet because of their nature, having fights was inevitable. Nancy walked down the parking lot, alone. Her hands were stuffed in the pockets of her silver trench coat as she took slow steps towards the elevator. She suddenly heard the sound of a car engine as it died. When she turned around, she saw Ron walking up to her. His face was cold. She took a breath and waited for the fight to begin. She wasn’t going to take a step back from the fight, that wasn’t in her nature. But before every fight, she was the one who dreaded it.

Ron let out a hard sigh. “You didn’t show up the rest of the day. Where were you?”

Nancy flinched slightly at the harshness of his tone. “Shopping,” she replied just as sharply.

“I saw you earlier today with all your little triad friends. You’ve really gotten yourself mixed in with them haven’t you?” he asked. “Why can’t you just be a proper cop and keep your lines drawn? What if something went wrong in there?”

“Proper cop?” Nancy replied, wondering where he was trying to go at. “So you’re saying I’m not being a good cop?” her voice began to rise in volume. “For your information, I was in there in order to investigate further on this case.”

“You didn’t have to. All you had to do was follow you lead at a good distance away. We were going to arrest Yoyo Chen later anyways. Macy Chan isn’t who we’re after.”

“And how sure are you about that? You and Kate were supposed to be watching Yoyo anyways, why did you go after me?”

“Because I couldn’t believe you,” Ron replied, his volume growing as well. “How could you mix yourself in with criminals? What good is carrying your badge around then?”

“Sometimes you look at things from a criminal’s point of view. If you don’t you’re never going to know how and why they did it!”

“Seeing things from a criminal’s point of view doesn’t mean that you should become one!”

“So now you’re saying I’m a criminal?” Nancy asked. “Fine then, handcuff me and take me back to the station!”

“I’m not saying you’re a criminal but the people you hang out with are. Seeing you in that restaurant made me rethink what you were doing while I was busy at work. It made me wonder how you got to know all those men and how they know you so well. How in the world did you convince them that you weren’t a cop?”

Nancy remembered how she convinced Raymond she wasn’t a cop. She swallowed five of his unknown pills. She thanked god she didn’t have to do the same for everyone in that restaurant. “Ron I was only trying to crack the case faster.”

“Cracking a case has other methods. You don’t need to be mixing yourself with that crowd.”

“How else am I going to find information?!” Nancy suddenly yelled at him. “With the ways you lead the group, you’re too worried on safety to let me do anything by myself. I know my limits and as long as I don’t blow my cover I’m good to go in there!”

Ron shook his head and walked away from her. He turned back and yelled, “Fine! Do things your way. You’re only getting yourself in danger and other people in danger too.”

“I’m not putting you in danger am I?” she replied. “No, then stay out of it!”

Nancy shook her head. She gripped her bag tightly as she stormed back out of the parking lot. She had no intentions of going home that night. Rather, she was planning on going out to the bar and like Ron had said mix herself in with the criminalist crowd to get more information. She didn’t mind having to use disguises or to lie, just as long as she and her conscience knew that what she was doing was for a good thing. Ron on the other hand didn’t care about the outcomes. He only cared about the approach. Nancy knew that if she did things Ron’s way, the cases would take way longer to solve and important evidence might disappear. She knew Ron was smart and clever, but he cared too much about safety and because of that, his methods become a hassle. She stormed off, angry but ready to do things her way.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Unboxing my 2 Books

Just sharing my thoughts and stuff ^_^

Sunday, January 16, 2011

A Fan Fiction Book?!?! A Book?!?!


Hello everyone!
So, where have I disappeared to for the past month maybe?
Well I was not only busy at work with "From Dawn Till Dusk" and "Midnight Sun", I was also working on "Luxe". So now why am I working on Luxe when I've just finished it?
BECAUSE I MADE IT INTO A BOOK!!!!
Yes a book!
I went onto a self publishing site in order to make my own book! I changed the cover for Luxe though, but the original graphic will still be shown inside the book. You guys can check it out in the links I've provided.
I made a total of two books.
One is "Luxe", my fan fiction I've just finished last year, and the other is "[e]motion", a collection of poems and memos by me and a couple other artists. They also contain a first chapter preview to all the novels and fan fictions I'm working on now.
The prices the book was made was kind of pricey, so the prices I'm selling it for might be a little expensive. I've tried to make it as low as I could. You can check it out on the links I've provided. There are previews to the book on there! ^_^
Thank you everyone. Without you this would've never happened.
I now can say that I have published my own book! xD

From Dawn Till Dusk - 03 - Old Habits Never Die



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October 17, 2009……12:30 p.m.
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She sat alone in the far side of the bar counter, uncomfortable, angry and growing impatient by the second. Nancy’s eyes were on the door, waiting for that little mole of hers to show up and explain to her why he must choose the worst time possible to contact her. Her fingers were tapping against the glossy wood of the counter, her nails making little clicking noises. The glass beside her hand was half empty, waiting for her to finish the last of the hard vodka the bartender had given her.
The door finally opened, and instead of false hope, this time he really did show up. His face was lit up by the colorful lights in the mild bar as he shown his smile to her. Ruco walked over casually, perhaps proud of himself for taking the initiative to find her and give her information. When he neared her, his pride suddenly fell. He saw the look on her face, and she didn’t look one bit happy. She was the opposite of what he had expected. He expected her to be happy and eager to know the information he gathered, but the expression on Nancy’s face right now spoke the polar opposite. He then wondered if he had somehow messed up, again.

“Is something wrong?” he asked in a shaky voice as he took a seat in the empty stool.

Nancy was quiet for a moment. She finished her drink and finally looked back up at him. Her stare was cold and eerie to him. Nancy suddenly turned away quickly, taking in a deep breath. Ruco could see her fist tighten then loosen again. After her breath, a neutral smile appeared on her face, as if she had just erased whatever was bothering her.

“What did I do wrong this time?” he asked timidly.

“You couldn’t have chosen a better time?” She mumbled, but he could hear her clearly. “Never mind that, just tell me what you got.”

“I picked a horrible time? I’m sorry, I was just kind of eager to take the initiative here.”

She signaled the female bartender for another drink as she spoke to him. “It’s nothing,” she lied. “Just tell me the information you got. If you decided to take the initiative, it has to be important.”

He put on a timid smile as he straightened himself in the seat, facing her. “Alright, so you asked me to trail Yoyo Chen and Macy Chan for you,” he began. “Well I’m doing that right now, but it may take a while for Yoyo since she isn’t exactly the carefree playgirl. She’s more of the paranoid type. But,” he paused. “Don’t get mad I have good news. I’ve come to know a lot about these two. Macy is Alice Chan’s younger sister. She is more of the carefree and childish nature. I’ve never seen her try to plot anything against anyone. She only clung onto Raymond because of well lustful reasons I guess. No rumors have been spread about her, so she seems alright.”

“What about Yoyo?” Nancy asked.

“Yoyo on the other hand is different. She’s careful and manipulative. I heard people in the gang say that she manipulated Raymond into letting her control part of his territory. She also seems like the jealous and emotional type too. I always see her getting into fights with other girls, and nearly every other sentence she says, they’re something hurtful. She might be the one you’re after.” Ruco finished with a long breath as he waited for Nancy’s reply.

Nancy was quietly sipping her drink for a moment. She set the glass down half empty again and turned her body facing him. “Ruco,” she began coldly. Surprisingly, you’ve outdone yourself this time. Why can’t you be like this all the other times I asked?” she smiled.

Ruco was shocked to hear the words of smooth and truthful compliments coming out from her mouth. He smiled shyly at first, but like any other times Nancy’s sudden change in expression brought fear and surprise to him. He could see that her eyes were on the door and they looked worried. He turned around. Ruco’s body tightened up when he saw the young man and a familiar face walk in. He’s seen this woman before, but being beside this man would be the last place he’d think to find her. Ruco was quiet as Raymond walked in casually. He obviously saw them from the door as he was making his way towards them. Ruco could’ve sworn that Raymond hasn’t ever heard of this bar, but it seems he was wrong.

“Evening Mr. Lam,” Ruco greeted as he gave Raymond a timid smile.

“No need to be formal Ruco. I’m just having a drink with my new lawyer here,” he smiled. His hair was messy, but in a charming way. Raymond had a one of a kind smile, and he had a built figure underneath his blue shirt with the sleeves rolled up.

The woman acted as if she and they were strangers. She had a lovely and comforting smile on, a contradiction to her formal business attire. “Hello, I’m Tavia Yeung. Pleased to meet you,” she greeted, putting even more distance between them with her tone. “And you are?” she asked, looking over at Nancy who sat with an unreadable expression behind Ruco.

Nancy suddenly smiled calmly, suppressing all her emotions within. “Nancy Wu,” she replied.

With her quick glance around her, Nancy could see that Raymond had just noticed something odd between her and Tavia. They both remained oddly calm as he slipped out a smirk and a little chuckle under his breath. Nancy feared that if he remembered her from their silent meeting at the police station, she and Ruco would be done for. Her heart was racing, worrying that this unpredictable playboy who stood in front of her could possibly blow out her cover and endanger all her friends here. Nancy’s heart was racing so fast, but she used all the will she had in her to control herself from revealing any signs of anxiety.

“I could’ve sworn I saw you somewhere,” Raymond finally spoke. He then stopped to think.

“Uh, maybe you saw her with me Ray,” Ruco interrupted, trying to lower the suspicion. “She’s new in our gang and she works under me. Her name is Nancy,” Ruco rolled out his words as if he’s recited it many times, thinking ahead in case of times when their cover is blown.

Tavia grabbed Raymond’s attention when she quietly passed him a drink. “Maybe you did,” she added. “You can’t even remember all the people who works under you, not to mention new recruits.” Tavia’s voice was calm, but as her close friend Nancy could hear her voice shake and quiver as it came out.

Raymond nodded as he played with the cherry in his drink. “I guess so. But I’m pretty sure if you’re this pretty I’d at least have some recollection of where I saw you,” he smiled, a dashing player’s smile. “Well, if you’re working under me, I’m sure you’d be able to play a game with me.” Raymond’s smile remained as he waited for Nancy’s response.

“What kind of game?” she asked, now a little more relaxed.

“It’s sort of like a bet,” Raymond began. “If you can swallow these five pills without throwing up, I won’t make you do anything odd or troublesome. If you can’t, well then I can have fun embarrassing you as much as I want for the night. Take it as some kind of hazing to become someone in my gang.”

The bag of white pills in his hand was a threatening temptation to most people who lives by the night, but to Nancy it could mean the death of her. She had no idea what kind of pills these were, ecstasy, heroine or some other kind of hallucinogen, but if it came from Raymond, it meant trouble. Yet she had no other options. It was either she save herself the trouble and swallow them, or possibly stir up further suspicion by refusing to. Her gaze on the bag wasn’t noticeable, but it was deep and thoughtful. In her mind she was basically flipping a coin: heads, she takes it while tails, she refuses.

“Heads,” she thought to herself. “Give it to me,” she replied with a lying grin on her lovely face.

Raymond nodded and casually handed her the bag.

Before Nancy placed the pills in her mouth, she took a quick glance over at Tavia and Ruco. Ruco was quiet and for once he had a stern look on his face. Nancy could see his muscles well-defined as he gripped the leather side of his chair. Tavia remained calm physically, but when Nancy looked into her best friend’s eyes she saw an explosion of worry and fear all mixed into one confusing emotion. Nancy closed her eyes for a brief second as she turned her head towards the ceiling lights and tossed all five pills into her mouth. In one quick and painless breath she swallowed them all.

She could hear loud, amused clapping once she looked back at the three. Raymond was laughing as he clapped for her. “Good job, you’re the first to actually not throw up right after you take it!”

Nancy saw both her friends let out the breath they were withholding and gave her a smile. She then felt the churning of her stomach and realized that the pills had kicked in faster than she had hoped. She felt nauseous and her throat became quickly dry. It was kind of hard to breath and her head began to throb. She wondered what kind of pills she took when all of these symptoms suddenly pop up. Nancy tightened her fist as she let out a laugh, hoping to ease down the mood. Her bad symptoms were starting to go away, but too slow for her to feel relieved.

Raymond clapped once again as he hopped off of his stool. “Well, I have to go now. It was fun meeting you Nancy,” he smiled so charmingly. “I’ll see you again soon. Ruco bring her to the gatherings more.”

“Ok,” Ruco replied in a low voice to Raymond.

“Now I have to go settle some stuff with the ladies. Tavia, I’ll see you later,” he smiled. Nancy could see that Tavia’s view on him was mixed very well. “Ruco want to come?”

“Sure,” Ruco nodded as he got off the stool. “Taking care of Macy and Yoyo?” Ruco asked as he threw a quick glance at Nancy.

“Yeah, come on I’m going to need help for these two,” Raymond rushed as they left the bar.

Once they left, the two remaining girls could finally loosen their tension and take a nice, calm breath. Tavia ordered another drink for both of them, slouching in her stool and losing her sense of professionalism only to Nancy. She played with the cherry in her drink just as Raymond did; an old habit of hers.

“How are you feeling?” Tavia asked quickly in a worried voice.

“I feel fine now, they felt more like pain killers with a little of something else,” Nancy mumbled as she tried to recall the feelings of the pills.

“No ecstasy or heroine,” Tavia sighed. “Thank god.”

“That was scary,” Nancy spoke with a loose sound of laughter.

“Are you kidding me? It was dangerous! What were you thinking?” Tavia replied.

“I don’t know,” Nancy shrugged. “I guess old habits never die.”

Tavia looked up at the dim lights in front of them as she sighed. “Yeah, remember when we first met? My first impression of you was that you’re not afraid of anything and that you were too brave or a little psychotic.”

“Of course I remember,” Nancy laughed, spinning her glass in her hand. “You called me insane. That wasn’t a very nice way to thank someone who just saved you.”

They both laughed as they gazed up to the dim blue lights ahead of them, both reminiscing the lovely past that they had shared. It was long ago, but it was an unforgettable day in their mind. After all, who could forget the day when they met a friend who would later mean so much to them?

===
FLASHBACK
===

Not only was her heart broken, she was scared out of her mind. Backed up into a corner, she exchanged glances with three tough, brooding men that surrounded her. The tallest one, the most charming one, the one that she had kissed, hugged and loved, placed his arms around her, preventing her from running. He looked at her with threatening eyes and let out a deep breath. She gripped her bag tightly, holding it between her and him as she shook inside her bones, silently wishing that she had never dated a monster like him.

“Tavia,” he breathed, straining himself from hurting her. “Give me the money.”

She shook her head, trembling. “No, I have no more money because of you.”

“Give it up now.” He placed emphasis on every word, glaring at her with bloodshot eyes.

“No!” she exclaimed. “Before you weren’t like this. Now you got yourself into drugs and are doing horrible things just for money to support your foolish need!”

“You should’ve expected it from me,” he smiled, closing in on her. She could hear the laughter of his two other friends beside her. “Now be a good girl like you are and give me the money.”

She trembled slightly, almost crying as she wished for him to just disappear and leave her life immediately. Tavia opened her eyes when she suddenly heard a loud, ringing sound of glass breaking. To her surprise, he suddenly fell back away from her, his hand covering the back of his head as blood spilled out. He staggered to keep standing, pointing at her and then looking over at his friends. They all then turned away from her, too the short and tiny girl that stood behind them all. In the girl’s hand was another glass bottle, waiting to be thrown.

“You!” he screamed, pointing at the girl.

“You sick animals,” she spoke in an unafraid tone. “You go so low as to ask your ex-girlfriend for money to buy drugs. What a bastard.”

“This is none of your business Nancy Wu!” he screamed, trying to slap her.

She was too quick for him and instead of hitting her, he felt another bottle smacked against the side of his face. Tavia could see the blood that came out from his cuts and hear his scream as the pain came to his senses. He fell to the ground, but quickly with the help of his friends, they scrambled away. Tavia’s limbs were still trembling, but she pulled herself together and stood straight up, looking back at the girl who she now realized was a few inches shorter than her but was obviously braver than her.

“Are you insane?!” Tavia screamed, rushing over to the girl in fear of her getting hurt.

“That’s no way to thank someone who just saved you,” the girl replied in a joking manner.

Tavia was quiet for a moment. “Thank you,” she sighed.

“Don’t mention it. That guy has been bothering me since before he dated you.”

“Why did you help me?”

“I actually only wanted to get back at him for hurting my friend Sharon, and then turned out helping you. I guess it was two birds with one stone, I did a good deed.” The girl smiled as she tossed the part of the broken bottle still in her hand to the ground.

Tavia flinched as the sound of glass broke against the concrete. “Tavia Yeung,” she smiled.

“Nancy Wu,” she replied.

“You’re bleeding,” Tavia pointed out. She knew it was probably because of her aggression earlier. “Let me help you with it.”

===
END OF FLASHBACK
===

Nancy shook her head and smiled, looking down at the half empty glass of martini in front of her. She then turned to look at her long time best friend. It had been twelve years since they met. She was only fourteen then, and now she was soon to be twenty-six. It had been such a long time. Tavia smiled at her, calmly but differently. She didn’t show the arrogance of a lawyer in her smile as she would to everyone else, instead, in Tavia’s smile she was like a sister.

“Things didn’t change much since then,” Tavia sighed.

“What do you mean?”

“You’re still as aggressive as ever,” she pointed out. Nancy nodded to the true statement. “And I’m still attracted to the bad boy types.”

Nancy looked up at her, smiling. “Don’t tell me that you’re attracted to that playboy Raymond.”

“I’m not,” Tavia immediately defended. “I think I’d learn my lesson since then. But I can’t help it. I just find the rebellious types to be interesting. It’s not like I’m going to date any of them, I just find them interesting or attractive.”

“Well as a friend, I don’t mind who you date,” Nancy replied. “Just stay away from that Raymond guy. I shouldn’t have asked you to help me,” she shook her head.

“I’m ok,” Tavia cut in. “Raymond Lam would be the last man I’ll ever date. I’ve only known him for a couple days and his playboy nature is already unbearable.”

“Just whatever you do, keep your heart far away from his reach. I don’t want you getting hurt.”

===
October 20, 2009……01:00 p.m.
===

Half asleep, she tossed and turned in her bed, hoping to somehow fall back into sleep again. Nancy rubbed her tired face with her blanket gently as she turned around once again burying herself in the mountain of soft pillows and sheets she called a bed. Her head throbbed and pained from the on-going headache since last night, perhaps because of too much work and information. She groaned as she wrapped the blanket around her whole body, pulling her legs up and hugging them as she tried to go back to sleep, hoping her headache would go away.

A warm and soft hand pulled the blanket away from her, wrapping her again in a different kind of warmth. She snuggled in closer, her eyes still closed.

“Wake up,” he spoke softly beside her ear. “Don’t you know what day it is?”

“I don’t care what day it is,” she moaned. “I’m so tired Ron, give me ten more minutes.”

“You can have an hour if you want. We’re not going to work today.”

Nancy was suddenly awake, sitting up and looking into her fiancé’s eyes. “Why aren’t we?”

Ron only smiled as he took her hands and placed her in his arms. He picked up her tiny body with ease and brought her out of the room. “Come on, brush your teeth first and I’ll tell.”

“Fine,” she sighed as he placed her down in front of the bathroom sink. Surprisingly, Ron had already had her toothbrush out and ready.

Nancy watched him watching her as she brushed her teeth. She noticed that Ron was being odd today. Why was he watching her doing something so common?
She never knew it, but Ron had always loved watching her do average, little everyday things. It was something about her that amused him in everything she does. He placed his strong arms around her waist as she wiped her face dry. Nancy didn’t need make up, she still looked beautiful naturally. She then leaned on him, placing her arms on his shoulder as she waited for him to answer. He didn’t. Instead her turned her around and pulled her back into his arms fully, picking her up again. She laughed.

“I can walk you know,” she smiled.

“Of course, but I just like to carry you,” he replied.

“So why aren’t we working today?” she asked him as he placed her down in their kitchen. She was still facing him until Ron placed his hands on her waist and gently turned her around.

“Happy birthday!” he yelled once Nancy saw the lovely cake that sat in front of her.

She was speechless. “Oh my god!” she screamed, not knowing what else to say.

“I can’t believe you didn’t even remember your own birthday,” Ron laughed as he hugged her.

“I remembered,” she lied. She had no idea. To be honest with herself, she didn’t even know what the date was, not to mention her birthday.

“Make a wish sweetie,” Ron spoke to her as he leaned his head on her shoulder.

Nancy placed her hands together and closed her eyes as she smiled. In her mind, she thought of the most wonderful thing that she wanted and then wished for it. “I wish Ron and I would never fight again and instead live like this forever,” she thought to herself. When she opened her eyes, she took a deep breath and blew out all the candles in one try.

“Yes!” Ron smiled as he began cutting the cake.

“You’re such a pig,” she laughed as she leaned over and watched him.

Ron reached his head over the table, placing his lips gently on hers. Without a word, they kissed and shared whatever feeling of happiness they had in them. Ron was always gentle, he was aggressive to her but in a way he was also gentle. Nancy’s headache was gone, all the pain and straining she had before just magically disappeared. It seemed as if just being with Ron alone was her cure. He took her hand as they continued to kiss on for another long moment. Slowly they then pulled away, both wanting to push back in for another kiss, but then they would probably end up kissing the whole day away.

“Shall we go get some food after this?” Ron asked in a charming way as he shared the cake with her. Their piece was big, almost three fourths of the beautiful cake alone.

“Yes we shall,” Nancy replied. “Breakfast?”

Ron laughed. “It’s one in the afternoon. I don’t think they serve breakfast at this hour.”

Nancy stuck her tongue out at him.

“It’d be weird to eat breakfast at this time.”

“Come on,” Nancy smiled.

Ron knew that she didn’t care whether it was breakfast or lunch. She just wanted to eat and be with him. “How about lunch instead?”

“Fine,” she replied with a funny little smile. “Be a normal person then.”

He only laughed at her remark and placed her hand in his.

If she remembered right, they haven’t fought at all for the last couple of days. Maybe her wish really was coming true. She never thought that a birthday wish would come true, but it was always worth a try. Ron was being really sweet to her, as usual. He was always caring and close. No matter how mad they get at each other they would always go back to this delicate closeness like usual. She smiled and fell into his arms as he came behind her.

“Get dressed now,” he smiled. “You don’t want me to take you out in your pajamas.”

“Do it,” she laughed. “I’ll go out in these.”

“But I can’t,” he laughed and turned her around. “Look, your dress is up to your thigh! What if someone looks up your dress?”

“Kill joy,” she smiled as she kissed him briefly on the cheek.

“You disagree with me on everything,” he spoke as he hugged her tight. “But yet we don’t really become enemies,” he then smiled. “That’s good.”

“I don’t disagree with you on everything. I just like to tease you.”

“True,” Ron replied. He knew she liked to tease him, but in another person’s eyes, they were always disagreeing yet somehow they’d always end back as a close couple. “I guess old habits never die,” he mumbled so as those words were something private of theirs. “I love you.”

Nancy closed her eyes and hugged him tighter, tighter than normal, tighter than ever before. “I know,” she sighed happily.

:: Favorite Quotations ::

"I believe that some day, he will walk into my life and give me all the right reasons to live, laugh, and love. " - A Dreamer



"When you start to miss me, remember, I didn't walk away, you let me go." - A girl



"Live with no excuses and love with no regrets." - Unknown



"Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about." - Unknown



"Someday someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else." - Unknown



"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." - One wise person.